REVENGE

Although we still have all week to write something, I felt really badly like saying something to what we watched in history class today. When I got home just now I felt exhausted....the whole topic won't leave me alone. It keeps coming back - the genocide of the Armenians....Someone tell me, HOW can humans be this cruel?.....I'm lacking the right words.

While I was watching the movie I could barely keep my senses together. I felt like jumping up, doing something, maybe screaming or throwing up, but it felt like the worst and most unbearable option to just sit there, watching and listening to the devastating facts....and knowing there is nothing you can do about it. It has happened. Inside I was screaming to God...but I didn't know what to say. I couldn't ask God to step in and help...And I was pondering on the thought why? WHY did this happen? Does God need to prove to us that we are cruel?.......Whilst watching I felt anger, deepest anger grow inside me. Anger at the world. The stupid injustice. HOW can things be so disgusting, so revolting, so......unspeakably rotten and wrong?!.....Why are humans SO, SO STUPID? These are the moments I could start hating man...

This afternoon I sat down at the piano and I wanted to play something...I leafed through the music books that I have...and suddenly I felt so ashamed. So embarrassed that we sing the songs that the wealthy, healthy, carefree Christians of the West have written, without a CLUE of the suffering on this earth. And I felt like not singing anything anymore.....Justice....WHERE in the world is justice?...What made me angry too was the thought that I don't even have a right to hate those who do such incomprehensibly cruel deeds....I feel a wall of frustration rising up and I need to release it on someone who deserves it. I bet you know this feeling - the wish for revenge. Because revenge is the brother of justice. And God knows that better than we all do.

When we hear revenge we so quickly put it in the same drawer as doing wrong, impatience, aggression, evil. And that is true in one sense. God clearly says that WE are NOT meant to take revenge on others. But not for the sake of evil to continue knuckling earth down....God has reasons, and they are wise (one look at the world and we can all agree that WE are not wise..) The reason we're not supposed to take revenge on others is for the sake of JUSTICE. Because revenge WILL come. HE will bring justice to all the injustice, the pain, the quarrel, the unspeakable suffering on this earth. Justice is PROMISED to us. It is prophecied. Which means, judgement will come. Relief. The satisfaction for our body and minds - which are constantly screaming for it....we WANT justice. The fact that life is unfair drives us insane...

I have to tell you, the moments I see cruelty as horrid as today, it COMFORTS me to know that God will take revenge and set things right. The day of perfect justice is sure to come. Because the perfect one himself will be the judge. And yes, there will be mercy...but only if a price high enough was payed. There won't be one deed, one hurt that will not be payed for. There will, FINALLY, be no "getting away" - not with ANYTHING. Every time you've been hurt, it will be revenged...... :))

This is one of my favourite verses in the Bible:

The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the broken-hearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favour and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion- to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair... Isaiah 61, 1-3

In the Bible revenge (or vengeance) itself is put so close to comfort. The Lord's revenge IS our only comfort...

 

There's a song based on this verse...It is one of the BEST songs for my life...:) It is my hope, in all this CRAP that we are confronted with... That he is coming. And he WILL SET THINGS RIGHT.